squee451's Journal

Single for a bit, I decided to take a break with Arielle. I really don't know why, she was a great gf, prolly gonna end up back with her. Hi Livejournal, I want to marry you Baker of Love

Good day to any of you who for some reason read this. I'm 18, I lost money at a casino and made alot in an online tourney. I am a man what with the having sex and all. Spring break is fun, got drunk made money gambling, was a bad decision but w/e. there ya go Livejournal

long time
It's been a long time old friend. I have a gf, of 3 weeks, we have had many interesting sexual encounters that noone wants to hear about, this is just a reminder for my future self, they happened. Girls are dumb alot of the time. I am much happier than I've been in a while, physical relationships are underrated. School is fine got into USC with a big scholarship
they are flying me down and I got a sexy pinstripe navy blue suit for infinite money. I'm down on gambling recently up about 200 lifetime now for online. But w/e... Valentine's day was fun, my girlfriend sometimes ruins things though and it bothers me quite a bit.

Kissing her...
Ready LJ how ya doing baby? haven't seriously talked to you in a while. things are looking up, Mardi gras, in new orleans, with brandon. Lots of commas. I plan on coming back to Arielle and her being single, it ain't going to last for her and her bf, that relationship was doomed from the minute that guy got her NOTHING for her birthday. Being with her is like being on crack the high can only last so long, and if people find out you do it, YOUR fucked.

Pet peeve time
Fuck girls who masturbate and say they don't its fucking natural to have fun with yourself, loosen the fuck up bitches.

Lots of love,
Adam

Man-up Nigger

Current Music: Stroke 9 Do it all over again

Mermaids they make bad girlfriends
I made out with Arielle alot. Ashley you can't read this. So don't tell anyone or mention it to me.

Quote for you all
"Life's a trip ese."
Mexican gangster
Training day

Good god
It's been a long time since I updated. Like a week, but a lot has happened and now I won't be able to write all of it. So Winter formal January 8th was a great evening. Limo ride was fun, even though my friends kept telling Mattie stories about drunken adam, she was incredible about it, that girl is literally perfect. Dinner was great at newport bay, I had a steak, no awkward silences, good times were had by all. The dance was fun even though I couldn't dance I pretended I could, and we had our photos taken alot, she laughed alot and I thought she had a great time as well as I did. Arielle and I had a giant fight the night before winter formal so the only time I felt bad was when I saw her with her Bf, that guy's such a douche. But yeah after the dance we went back to my house and watched anchorman with another couple. Than I gave her a ride home at 1:45 and we talked the entire time it was great. I didn't try to kiss her though... Idk why I think it's cause of my feelings for Arielle.

New paragraph just for Arielle. She Imed me and told me she's scared of cheating on her bf with me and doesn't want to hang out with me anymore. She called back the next day and said she was sooo sorry and her friend typed all that shit and she would never want to stop hanging out with me. I really like her. Guess what her Bf got her for her birthday..... NOTHING, thats right NOTHING, Worst guy ever.

Spent a day with Ashley, she reads my livejournal. We watched snatch went to the mall, played with vibrators, naked manequins, read sex tip books, it was a blast. But yeah I had alot of fun hanging with you ashley.. we still need to go back to buy me a sex tip book.

I need a girlfriend this close to breaking ARielle off with her BF.

Yo yo yo?
So life is so interesting at times. Its like hey I'm interesting.... and than yeah. So arielle said she had feelings for me, but she has a bf.... and he's jealous of me. I'm jealous of him its a mutual thing I guess. So idk whats gonna happen with girls cause they suck and rock. Girls are the only things that matter.

Current Mood: jealous
Current Music: Wonderwall

Drunk drunk drunk drunk skunk?
So I had the most alcohol ever new year's eve. 3/4 of a flavored fifth of vodka, YUM. So we started off watching anchorman. Jaike Megan Brandon caroline Jason and I were all there. Emily Schauer showed up, Muhammad showed up. 3 Junior girls and this guy from my math class showed up. We all went to my room. We played strip poker. I was drunk as a skunk. Two of the girls showed their breasts, it was good times at the time. WEnt to watch the ball drop, didn't kissanyone. My dad came downstairs for it. Told a girl to put her pants back on (best part of the night). Me and the Junior girls and a guy went to the local elementary school. We got naked. We ran around alot. GOOD god those girls were fine. We put our clothes back on cause it was freezing and the girls had to go home. I got dropped off at my friends' house to see Jodi, SOO DRUNK at the time. I talked to her for like 30 minutes than walked 4 miles home freezing in the middle of the road drunk off my ass. GOOD TIMES. Fell asleep at 3. Woke up at 7, room was spinning. SERIOUSLY FUCKING SPINNING. Drank a whole bottle of water. Made drunken phone calls. Woke up at 12. Sober and hungover. GOOD TIMES.
Limp bizkit ruins Staind songs with his fucking talking.
I love you....

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: I feel Fine

new years
party party drink drink party party drink drink. All alone right now, I don't know what to say. Cause you're mean and I never liked you anyway. you'll never call, cause I don't want to be friends. Excuse me now cause the course is coming up again. They come and go and I don't feel a thing. It's not cause I'm a jerk and I don't care. I don't know whats the matter with me. I only know the right girl's still out there....... THAT SONG FUCKING RULES. More lyrics now.
Darling close the curtains
cause all we need is candlelight
you and me and a bottle of wine
gonna hold you tonight

well we know I'm going away
and how I wish, I wish it wasnt so
so take this wine and drink with me
and lets delay our misery

Save tonight, and fight the break of dawn
Come tommorrow tomorrow I'll be gone...
More

Had a bad day don't talk to me
gonna ride this out
my little black heart,
breaks apart with your big mouth

Went to the doctor and I asked her
to make this stop
got medication, a new addiction
fucking thanks alot

Had a relapse, out of rehab
ruins everything.

MORE MORE MORE PEOPLE THESE SONGS FUCKING ROCK

The nightmares, the bad dreams,
have become reality
at least inside my mind... yeah
no words you say could ever make me want to change
forgive me, not when it comes toooo this crime.

I met her before you she wore the sweetest perfume
her scent reminds me of our first date....
I still taste our last kiss
her name still falls from my lips....

Who am I gonna kiss when the clock strikes 12, gonna be too drunk to remember...

Current Mood: devious
Current Music: WHATS YOUR FANTASY?

What's your fantasy?
Making a complete sundae out of a naked girl and than licking it off.... slowly.... But yeah that song by ludacris, pretty fucking cool for rap neways. So Girls, are going well??? yeah pretty fucked up I know. So I hung out with Jodi and watched zoolander and that was pretty tight, I didn't ask this girl for her phone number before winter break even though i wanted to. I went out with this chick named lauren to the grudge. She's pretty cute goes to Lincoln, we had a good time talked alot, we have a lot in common so I'm gonna try and hang out with her some more this break. Same with Jodi. I hung out with my little mermaid Arielle as well. We kind of watched Kujo, kind of wrestled over her purse, we were pretty much all over each other it was a lot of fun. Than we went to pizza schmizza, its kind of our place I guess? But it was really cute, I was really close to kissing her and Jodi and Lauren..... But seriously if one of them agrees to be my girlfriend than I'll be faithful and all that. Umm interesting side note, for each date, I took one and a half shots of vodka prior to hanging out with them. REALLY takes the edge off, incredible for my nerves, its a good plan for me. Standard Break from Life Alkaline Trio.
My senior quote
"On a night without the moon or stars you can't see a thing but you can imagine anything.... I am in a constant state of intellectual erection" They are trying to cut off the 2nd part due to the word erection. I'm fighting the man.

Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: What's your fantasy?

I have goals!
I have goals, yes I do, I have goals how about you?
1. Get Laid
2. Get a girlfriend
Yes in that order, it just makes more sense.

Current Mood: horny
Current Music: Obsesion aventura

hey hey hey
Hmm so I didnt get into University of Pennsylvania, I got deferred, but in reality I don't really want to go there over a school in California, cause I like the atmosphere down there alot better. So It's kind of a good thing. Girls.... fucking sketchy as hell in general, enough said. My grades are 2A's and 4 B's this quarter and prolly for the semester so yeah, parentals are kind of getting mad, but its my senior year, all my friends can skip cause they are all going to PCC or Western so they dont have to work at school. I don't really want to work at school anymore, just want to lay back enjoy the good times that I've never enjoyed. Hmmmm music fucking rocks socks more than anything ever.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Alone in a Crowd Catch-22

player or no?
So yeah I went out with Arielle on Saturday, finally. I don't think she knows I write about her. We actually had a really good time. She has the best smile ever and I can just keep her laughing so its good stuff. Kept making jokes about her breaking up with Jordan, but she didnt seem to be buying it. It was still fun tho. Than we saw Napoleon dynamite, made some interesting vampire jokes. Put my arm around her, she didn't mind the trick is the constantly touching stuff. So than she got picked up, and I went and saw a murder mystery play at Wilson with Jodi. She's pretty cute, too jewish for me maybe, she has that same innocence thing that mattie has, but she seems really into me unlike mattie. I think she'd prolly be my girlfriend if I asked her. We are gonna hang out next week so hopefully that goes well. But yeah the play was the first play at wilson I saw and it was really good. Than when we went out to baskin robins and split a banana split on the stairs outside. It was really fun and pretty romantic. Saw mattie at the play while I was with Jodi that was kind of awkward but didnt seem that bad, she was there with her friend so it was fine. Not a guy friend tho so thats good and tonight i'm off to watch my friend play hockey with my whole math class.
Girls are interesting.
Have an erotic day

Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: I'm not okay, My chemical romance

Girls always Girls
So yeah I'm going to hang out with Arielle this weekend, but I've written that before. Hopefully it works out, we are gonna go see Napoleon Dynamite at Valley, gonna try and see it with Mattie Sunday as well so it'll be double the napoleon. It should be awesome. She's too attached to her boyfriend maybe. I think she still likes me and I'm sure she'd go out with me if they break up, her longest relationship only has been a couple months so it might work out between us, she'll be a really good friend neways.So went downtown with this girl named Veronika from photo class. She told me all her sex stories it was funny as hell. Kind of slutty tho.... but w/e she was cool to kick it with. So yeah not much new applying to all these colleges. Spanish field trip to the art museum in seattle tomorrow that should be fun.

myself
I need to make some changes to who I am. I don't know what kind of person I've become, some sort of dick. I can't stand being alone anymore, I can't stand to be around myself at all. Brandon understands me better than anyone else possibly could. I talked to arielle tonight, told her how I felt, we jokes about her breaking up with jordan but I can't see that happening. I fall in love with every girl out there. I can't deal with my emotions my thoughts. I am going to be doomed to a life of being alone... God if you're there, send me a girl.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Brick by Ben Folds Five

Fuck them
Fuck all of them, she is such a stupid bitch I can't believe what a fucking bitch she is. She doesn't deserve shit, she needs to realize she ain't so fucking hot. She needs to realize that she is avg if that, I Fucking hate her so much. What a dumb fucking bitch, she thinks she can get GRaham. But I defended her to them, I was nice to her, I liked her, but she's such a fucking dumb ass bitch, she thinks she's so great but she's such a slut, I was so defensive of her to my friends. I didn't care if she was fat or not, cause she was a cool person but no, she thinks she can do better. FUCK HER! All the girls I liked were hotter than her.
FUCK HER!

hmm
So it seems like Mattie doesn't like me at all. And that Arielle likes me but is kind of sketchy cause of her boyfriend. It's all an intrinsic circle of girls just sucking in general. But yeah 4 day weekend, I want to hang out with everybody, so leave me a message if you want to kick it with me this weekend.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Boulevard of Broken Dreams

good weekend
So I got drunk as a skunk on friday, 2 40's one pabst one bud. Good times, played alot of poker and apparently typed in my livejournal. So yeah I tried to kick it with Arielle this weekend, but it didn't happen. I texted her alot and she replied alot, and she started a convo on AIM, idk if any of these things are good signs cause she may or may not have made up excuses not to hang out with me.... I can't really tell. So yeah that sucks she might have legitimate reasons, we'll see this upcoming weekend, its 5-days so if she tries not to hang out with me, than I can prolly safely assume she doesnt like me. I hope she does tho, I make her laugh and she makes me happier when I'm around her. I've fallen in love with any girl who's ever giggled at one of my comments and than glanced in my direction.... sad isnt it? Bought 3 movies, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Fear.com, and Kill Bill 2, Watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. One of the greatest modern-day love stories ever, need to watch that flick with a chick. Watched it with Whitney and Alex and Graham. Whitney had this large hole in her jeans that you could see her ass through..... I tried to avoid staring, but I am only a man.
Quote for the day from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
"Why do I fall in love with every girl who pays me the least bit of attention?"
Joel Parish

I have a plan...
So there's a new girl in my 12-gauge radar at school, and that is Arielle. Fucking cool name right? So yeah anyways Mattie's cool but she's so shy, I can't tell if she likes me or not or what she's ever thinking about. But yeah Arielle is short tan cute, funny, and smart. So that's about it, and I can make her laugh alot plus I think she had a crush on me at one point or another. Complications, she has a boyfriend of 2 weeks though. She flirts with me alot in photography though so hopefully that means something. Idk I like her a bunch so I need to break her and her boyfriend up, I think we are gonna go see Shaun of the Dead at valley theatre this weekend, if things go as planned. Also I want to kick it with Leah and Whitney again and hopefully my poker friends this weekend, so that's alot of kicking it... anyways give me ideas.

nothings new.
Nothing is new at all in my life really. Cleaning my room, bored out of my mind, talking to people on the computer. I think I aced my math test today so I guess that's good. I'm randomly depressed for no reason. I guess it happens. I really don't want to do anything but sleep forever... not deathwise. I might do hw and than just head to bed really early and try to get a good night's sleep. I'm not sure what my weekend plans are yet, a bunch of things could happen. I'm gonna try and get Mattie to come with me and brandon to a extra credit chemistry lecture, and failing that, try and get other girls to come with us to make things more interesting. I need the extra credit so I can get an A in the class. Fuck the world for being so difficult, so boring, and providing me with such few opportunities for being happy.
Dear Sweet Peter Can you feel this?
Everyone is in their own personal coma.

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